Thursday, November 4, 2010

So just over a year later... here I am:


105 lbs lighter!!! With no major "diet" or weight-loss plans to blame I guess its true what they say about controlling your portion size and excercizing. :)

Sunday, October 18, 2009

25 things about me:

1.) My favourite colour is green.
2.)I am in love with old school rap.
3.)I also love sappy love songs by the backstreet boys.
4.)I like me some men. :)
5.)I always want what I can't have.
6.)I fall too hard and too fast for people. This usually ends in me getting a bit hurt.
7.)I am a sucker for nice eyes.
8.)I love to cuddle.
9.)I am not a "mate-for-life" person
10.)I love to get advice, but rarely ever follow it.
11.)I have trouble learning from my mistakes.
12.)I have an irrational fear of wooden popsicle sticks (ECK).
13.)I think it would be cool to have 50+ tattoos.
14.)I dont like heat. I'd much rather freeze than be too hot.
15.)I hate seeing pregnant people, now that I am not having anymore kids.
16.)I am easily tempted and very weak when it comes to temptation.
17.)IM HORRIBLE WITH MONEY
18.)I think id have plastic surgery and can name three id love to have right now.
19.)I love watching movies.
20.)Say what you want, I'll admit it, I like Kanye west :S
21.)I am a day dreamer, and occasionally talk to myself.
22.)I like to sing along to my music, but I feel sorry for my neighbours.
23.)I don't think I will ever get married or find "the one".
24.)I have an insatiable love of chocolate peanut butter ice cream from baskin robbins.
25.)I love to dance, even though im a bad dancer.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

feelings.

This post has been long overdue. This is a post about my feelings, my frustrations, my heartache.
So here I sit. I never do this, ya know. I'm the happy one. ask anyone. I mean, sure I'm a little, lets say, disgruntled, but I'm the one who looks at the glass as half full. I'm pretty stable. 99% of the time if you ask me how I am, I'll say, "I'M FANTASTIC! How are you?" But not today. For no particular reason, I mean, today was no different then most days. Argument with the ex, screaming kids, DRAMA with friends. It was an average day. But today, the same old bullshit punctured my happy shell of existence. And the things that normally don't get to me, did.
Everyone thinks that people like me, who are generally happy and exuberant are also strong and brave. So in my case, with my divorce (shall we call it) I am the one who appears to be happier and coping with it. He is the one who is crying at night and on the brink of insanity. So on the outside, to my friends and family, I'M THE BAD GUY. I'm the one who threw him out and tore his heart to shreds. But what people don't see is the nights I spent alone while he was out with his friends making poor decisions. The debt I incurred trying to make ends meet, when we had more than enough income to get by. Nobody sees that I am falling apart too. Nobody cares to see what I have accomplished in the few short months that we've been apart. Everyone sees what they want to see: Me making a big mistake. Yes, He was good looking and a hard worker and a down-to-earth, just plain solid guy! My family liked him more than they like me. If they could choose I bet they'd rather get rid of me. And all my family sees is this fat girl who wont get any better. Well I don't need better. Better, to me, is just me and my kids. I DON'T NEED A MAN to measure my self worth. AND YES, I KNOW HOW HARD BEING A SINGLE MOM IS. I am accepting the challenge and I will be a stronger Woman in the end.
On another note, I am also discovering how scary it is and hard it is to be single. Having someone to love you is like instant validation. You dont have to care how you look or what you smell like sometimes. They love you. It doesn't matter how fat you are or if your hair is greasy. But being alone, it really is you against the world. I meet people who are so happy to be alone they are terrified to give themselves to another person. This is because they were hurt. And maybe I might become that way too... but right now I'm keeping focus on school, my kids, and my new life ahead of me. I will try and blog more. for my 1-2 readers lol. It makes me feel better. it centers me.
until next time.
Jackie
XOXO GOSSIPGIRL LMAO.. NOOOTTTT

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Marriage....

Heres what I think: Marriage is gay!
that was just to get you in to my evil scam. now you're thinking "did she say gay?" does anyone even use that word anymore?
I just want people to understand how i feel about prejudice.
Gay guys do not act girly and feminine to upset you.
They will not try to rape you if you bend over in front of them.
They do not want to rape your children and "recruit" them.
If youre a prejudiced asshole i hope you realise youre a FAGGOT. (like the irony there?)

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Day One: a new beginning

My name is Jackie, and I LOVE JUNKFOOD... I have always eaten unhealthy foods. This is what I looked like 3 years ago, before my two kids:

This is what I look like today:

You can't see my pitiful body in that shot but, it's probably better that you dont. I will be doing a before and after when I reach my goal which is to lose 70 lbs. that will bring me down to 160 lbs. (if you wanna know what i way now, do the math).
Anyways, Today is the beginning of my journey.Im going to be trying to lose weight the UNCONVENTIONAL WAY. through diet and exercise! People always say "try this colon cleanse" or "take this pill/drink this concoction" But im going oldschool.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Bedtime Stories with Adam Sandler



As someone who loves telling her kids stories, I was naturally veryu excited to see this new flick. It stars Adams Sandler, Courtney Cox and a few other well known names.
This movie really met and exceeded my expectations. Considering his last couple films, Cough* "Spanglish"...
If you don't know, the movie is about a man who has to babysit his niece and nephew for a week and ends up telling them wild tales that come true! Its a great movie and if I had to rate it, I'd give it Two thumbs up for sure!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Adopt an orphan in Malawi, become a national treasure?




In light of recent events in the media, I feel obligated to say: "wtf?"
If you don't already know the recent story about Madonna and her adoption issues in Malawi, here's a bit of a recap:
Madonna has been in the works of an adoption of a young girl in Malawi. The same country her son, David was adopted from. Supposedly, she has been advised that David needs another family member of his same ethnicity. The adoption was denied, and she is currently in the process of appeals. It was denied because of laws that require an adoptive parent to reside in malawi for atleast 18 months, to stop adopted children from getting in the hands of people looking to cash in, by selling the children to sex trades.
In Davids case, she was granted an exemption to the rule. Madonna is in a battle to get that baby!
Here's what I think: This woman has the power to drastically change these peoples lives. Not just one child!
Everyone is commending these people for adopting children from impoverished places and it's not deserved. These celebrities have so much money, they can put food on the tables of millions and still afford to live their lavish lifestyles. Maybe Madonna should stop taking babies away from their families, which in this case the children's parents are still alive, and focus on improving the lives of many. Not spoiling rotten one or two.
And further more, just because you have the money to provide for the children, does not mean you are a good parent. It just allows you to hire nannies to parent them for you! I mean, this woman is constantly reinventing her image and who knows if she is going to like the novelty of her adoptive children in a few years.
Really though, who WOULDN'T give THIS WOMAN a child?